I have always been forced to live my life in my own personal hell. I am the cause for the problems of the world. I have always had the feeling of complete sadness hanging out my head. The feeling of a tear falling, but that tear cannot be released because if it is, I will feel better. I prevent myself from being hap

The point of this story is so that anyone who reads this will have some insight on what its like to live with depression and anxiety. I want them to know they are not alone, and they can win. They can beat the sadness and the sorrow. I only wish I had someone there to tell me these words. I only wish I knew I was not alone. Keep living no matter what anybody tells you. You are you, and what you think is all that matters in your life. What matters is making yourself happy. Cry, scream, write, read, draw, run, sing, dance, sit, walk. Do it! If it makes you happy do it! Don't let depression take over your life.

My depression consumed me and everything I had. It consumed my intelligence, my judgment, my love, and most importantly, it consumed my life. I committed suicide on March 5, 2004. I never completed high school, and I never said good-bye to those I loved. I am now in a void. I died without closure, and my depression consumed me to a point where I could not live. I did not overcome my depression because I felt alone. Please, don't let the same thing happen to you.

I cannot express to anyone how precious life is. I cannot explain why anyone is here or what you are doing here. I can explain to you that your presence here makes another persons life better. There is no -greater feeling than that of making someone you love happy. I want to also stress that the worst pain in the world is watching someone cry because of you and never getting the chance to hold them and say sorry.

d wonder how much my death could have changed so many people's lives. If I was alive would she have made that mistake, would my mother not have shed these tears if I was there to comfort her? I sit here and cry inside my head. I sit here and wonder why. One mistake has made me regret a thousand things. -

There are times when I feel there is nothing here for me. There is nothing that I do, and no one gains from my presence. If I take a step back and I really look around at my surroundings I can see the people who truly love me and depend on my presence. My friends who have always been there for me and supported me, and the family members that do care for me. They all want me to be happy, so happy all the time. This makes me sink deeper into my feeling of hopelessness. I have tried so hard to make everyone happy by ME being happy. I have on this costume that makes me appear as if I am the perfect teenager with the perfect life. On the inside I'm screaming and crying for help. I never laugh, and I never crack a grin on the inside. My thoughts are never silenced, but I am forever muted.

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