Growing up is something that I look as bittersweet. It's great that that I am going to have responsibility and have more control of my life, but I also scars me. What if I fail? What if I make those bad decisions? I've never been a very responsible person, I look to other for help and for guidance but I am going to have to start doing it on my own. Responsibility isn't hard but its something I have to get use to. Having a job is great. You have money, you have responsibility but I can't say "Well, I don't feel like working today so I'm not going in". It is a commitment and maybe that's something that I had a problem with simply because a feeling of being trapped.

Another big problem that I had was that I never was really open with people. I never shared my problem with the people that cared about me. I simply felt "well; it's my problem. I should deal with it." Why burden anyone else with my problems? But what I didn't see was that I was hurting the people around me. When you know something is wrong with someone and they won't tell you, you will feel rejected. You feel like "this person obviously doesn't feel comfortable with me, and that's why they won't tell me what's wrong". You might even feel a sense of responsibility for what's wrong with that person because you don't know if it's because of you or not. The main feeling though is hopelessness knowing that because this person doesn't open up to you, so you can't help them because you don't know what's going on.

I think that is a sign of growing. Begin able to see you, your life and your problems in retrospect. "Staring at the world in my rear view" as Tupac once said. Seeing where you messed up and learning from it so you don't make the same mistake twice. Being able to see thing from a higher perspective, not just your own. I haven't lived very long but I do know that life is a series of ups and downs; peaks and valley. You have to learn to embrace those peaks and live through those valleys, if you want to be happy. Everyone goes to hard time but always look for brighter days or that light at the end of the tunnel. Try to find the good in every thing even if it's really hard to do. If you tired and it's only second period just remind yourself that you only have four more periods. If your dead tired at work just be happy the you have someone or

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