There I was playing with my friends Mark, John, Mathew, Kenny and Lloyd. We were desperately running away from Kenny because we had just thrown him into the BFI dumpster. He had a revoltin

From that day on, I began to try to find ways to stop being brown. One of my theories was that if I stopped drinking chocolate milk and only drank white milk my skin would lighten so then I too could be liked. Another of my theories was not to get hit by the sun at all. Due to this I began to like long sleeve shirts and pants. I wouldn't finish my work so I wouldn't have to go recess and rather stay inside and finish my work. When I noticed this wasn't enough I began to take more showers and often scrubbing so hard that my skin would begin to peel away because it was so dry and harmed form the harsh scrubbing. I began to notice also that all my friends and most of my family was of lighter skin than I was so I started to fear them as well. Though this was only the beginning it began to affect drastically.

After a couple of years went by I understood that I couldn't change my color so I stopped worrying about how to get whiter, but the paranoia was far from over. Therefore, I also built this insecurity towards all people of lighter complexion and of higher status. From that point on I became fearful of calling out the wrong answer to my anglo teacher or making a mistake in front of my white peers. I also became fearful of talking to my parent's friends and workers that had light skin as well. The word white and anglo became terrifying words to me and my scar was not embarrassing to me but an embarrassment. Feelings of insecurity over took me and did away w

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Approximate Word count = 1005
Approximate Pages = 4 (250 words per page double spaced)