Jordan and I first started dating back when I was in 10th grade, that makes it about, ok exactly October 6, 1999. The circumstances, in which we began our decent, were incredibly rocky. My best friend at the time was obsessed with him for the past few years. The only reason I began talking to him in the first place was for her. Now I had fallen in love. How do you explain something like that to your friend? Especially when she already knew in her heart what was happening. The day he asked me out, he took me out side, sat me on top a car, and sang a song he had written for me. Needless to say, we were going out from then on. The picture of us seemed perfect, and at times even felt perfect. But on the inside it was eating me away.

My best friend refused to talk to me. I stopped eating; I lost about

30 lbs. This occurs a lot when situations don't go my way. This is dangerous I know. Jordan knew it too. He could start to tell. When we went out to eat, I rarely ate, and if I did, I would excuse myself and go to the bathroom. Then other things would a rise, little fights here and there. A few hurtful little phrases said left and right. Soon secrets came about. I ended up hurt.

I went home that weekend and cried. I cried for me, cried for the past, and cried for the future. I cried for everything I ever wanted us to be and for all of which of those things were never met. After that he didn't talk to me for two weeks. He was busy, or away, there is always an excuse. I decided that he wasn't good for me. He was holding me back from what could be. I was gonna cut him out of my life for good. According to others "I was stupid for wasting so much time on him". At times I would have to agree.

The next day I arrived home from work to find a message on my machine. It was Jordan calling just to say "hello". I didn't call him back that night. I didn't know if I wanted to or not. So I waited. I called him the next day after deciding that calling him would be a bad idea, and I would only come out of it hurt. I called him, knowing full well the outcome. This time I untied my own shoelaces and ran as fast as I could. I ran, and I fell, and the only thing I could say was "I knew this was gonna happe

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