We Admitted We Were Powerless

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We admitted we were powerless over our addiction and our lives had become unmanageable.

The 1st step is the big step. It is the step, I, as an addict, had to come to understand and accept before I could do anything about my drug addiction. It is a very hard step to understand and accept, addicts don?t like to admit to anything that is outside themselves. I certainly did not want to admit anything about myself that would even hint that I had any kind of problems with my personal and physical life. Just the word powerless is a word that I did not want anything to do with. How could I be powerless? I had a life, poor as it seemed, that I thought I owned. Admitting I was powerless would mean that everything was a sham. I would have to admit that something outside of me was running my life, calling the shots, making the decisions and controlling my reactions. In other words, addiction was calling the shots but I could never see that. I thought I was in control (even if it was a piss poor job of running the show). There is no way to manage a life that is under the influence.

I had to first admit things to myself. I had to admit I had problems. I had to admit that I wasn?t running the show. I had to give

As an addict, I had to admit my powerlessness over my disease. This is much more complicated and scary than I could easily admit to myself at first. To be powerless, you have to have strength because you are admitting that you are not in control. Now doing drugs may seem on the surface to most as a way of being out of control but for me it was a way of controlling my life. Albeit, a sneaky and deceitful way, but a way of control. The courage and strength comes in when you let that false control go and just accept what is there in front of you, what is the truth. To do this, I had to let go of a whole lot of old patterns and old ideas and old ways of thinking. This takes strength, strength I didn?t think I had but I found was there. This led me to the acceptance of my powerlessness.

Addiction is a constant in my life. That was a surprise to me until I realized and accepted that I was powerless, that I had an unmanageable life. My addiction had not just one but many forms. It could be my craving of coffee, buying more than one of an item when one is sufficient, over eating because the plate is full (way too full to begin with), keeping and storing things just because I have them, not because of need and all kinds of other ways that say to me, ?You are an addict and it runs your life!? Addiction permeates my life, it is a constant companion to all that I do and am. That makes for a chronic disease that can kill me if the proper steps to arrest it are not taken. That is why my acceptance of my powerlessness is as important as is the acceptance of my life being unmanageable; I can then find ways of thinking and understanding my personal actions and motivations that give me choices

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