Throughout Jamaica Kincaid's book "Lucy” there is a continuous psychological battle be waged in the life of the main character Lucy. Traumatized by the thoughts of being her mother, the chaotic life in the city, which she is unaccustomed too, and the death of her father challenges her to find her own identity (coming of age). Rather then finding who she is Lucy falls short due to her selfishness and inability to let go of the past.
All through the book it is apparent that Lucy has anxiety and hostility built up inside of her, which mainly revolves around her mother. In Lucy's mind she believes that her mother did not support her to succeed in life like she had done for her younger brothers. Convinced that her mother was trying to mold her into the person that she wanted her to be, Lucy fled to North America and indulged in a sinful life, which contradicted everything her mother once taught her. Being so wrapped up in herself and her own drama, Lucy neglected her mothers letters and justified her actions and feelings by convincing herself that her mom was to blame for the anguish she was going through. Lucy never actually started her own life, because she was still holding on to her mothers.
Since Lucy's concentration was focused on her mom, her own selfishness kept her from the knowledge that her own father had passed away. Although Lucy sent the money that she had earned to her mother, since her father left her mother a pauper, she still had the built up anger against her mom. Instead of being sorrowful for the lost of her dad, she said it was her mom's fault that she was left in the position she was in, because she should not of married him in the first place. Lucy refused to give in to her mothers feelings and only focused on herself and how she could justify her own actions.
Trying to get away from the memories of her home, Lucy ventured out into the big cities of the United States.