I attended a camp where I was introduced to Christianity. The leaders there urged us to become Christians and let God lead the way. God was never a part of my life so, I was glad to finally learn about God and the things that he supposedly did, but I wasn't sure if I could have faith in something so mysterious. The whole week was very fascinating to me because I learned so much, but I knew I couldn't commit myself to becoming a Christian. I was very much a skeptic about what they taught us about Christ. The leaders at camp told us that part of having faith, was to even have faith in the mystery of Christ. I couldn't invest my faith in something without actually knowing that it was the real deal. The whole resurrection of Jesus or the miracles that he performed confused me. I

When I got home from camp I felt like there was something wrong with me. I certainly didn't want to offend anyone by talking about how confused I was. I didn't understand why I should feel ashamed or weird because I wasn't a Christian. I was so confused about myself because I knew that I believed in God, but not the God that I learned about at camp. I also didn't like the way that Christians felt that it was their way or no way. I wanted to know if there was anybody else like me, so I did some deep investigation.

While doing research, I found two quotes that I agreed with. The first, "Organized religion isn't for everyone, but spirituality is; it's a very self-centered thing, as it should be" on an Agnostic site. I agree that God is not there to tell you his side of the story, so you make do with your own perspective of his reflection. The other quote I heard in the religiously controversial movie Dogma. "Church is good, but God is better." I couldn't have put it in better words myself. My God does not judge, for he is not perfect, nor does he expect me to be. Yes, I exist because of him, as does everyone else, but he is more of a friend than a savior.

I think that my mom's friend also had something to do with me being Agnostic. My mom's friend is constantly sending our family e-mails and calling us on the phone trying to get us to join her church. It is so annoying. It is impossible to have a normal conversation with the lady because she relates everything to her relationship with Jesus Christ. Our family used to like going to their house or having them over to ours. She has let this religion stuff go too far. Once she thought the devil was entering her body so she scratched at her skin until it bled.

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