Winston's occupation consisted of rewriting history in a department for the Party. However his memories of the past usually conflicted with that of the Party's twisted version. Winston was very confused about whether or not he was losing his mind. His dreams revealed the reality of the Party and the truth of the past, enabling him to trust his own instinct of what was right and wrong, keeping it clear in his mind what the past was really like. In one dream Winston envisioned his mother and his baby sister sinking into a well or lowering off the side of a ship - he wasn't quite sure. He felt as if they were being sucked towards death. He knew they were sacrificing their lives for his own. Winston realizes "...that his mothers death, nearly 30 years ago, had been tragic and sorrowful in a way that was no longer possible" (Orwell 28). He believed that the feelings of tragedy, privacy, love, and friendship were things of past times. The memory of his mother's de

Winston and Julia visit O'Brien at his home. They told him that they believed that there was a "...secret organization working against the Party" and they wanted to join (Orwell 140). Without hesitation Winston agreed to give his life, commit murder, commit acts of sabotage, betray his country, and even throw sulfuric acid in a child's face. However, neither Winston nor Julia agreed to be separated from one another. Winston was definitely devoted to oppose the Party, and it was evident that he would do whatever it took to overthrow them. Although, his dreams revealed to him his love for Julia had only served as a firearm against the Party, Winston was still able to find strength and support in her.

Finally, at the end of the story Winston surrendered to the Party voluntarily. He had made a good effort to remain an individual, deciding it just wasn't worth the struggle any longer. Winston knew the truth. All in all, Winston learned to trust his gut instincts and believe in himself. He didn't let anyone change him, finding strength in himself and in the relationship he had with Julia.

While Winston was sitting in his cell at the ministry of love, a memory floated into his mind. He remembered playing a board game with his mother, while his sister watched. She had gone out to buy the game of Snakes & Ladders because Winston had been whining of boredom. It was a cracked board, and poorly made. Winston was very disappointed with it, but he became intrigued when his mother started to play. "For a whole afternoon they had been happy together, as in his earlier childhood". "His affection for her had temporarily revived"(Orwell 243). Winston suddenly pushed this thought out of his mind as if it were a false memory. At this stage of his life he no longer believed that this was the reality of the past, he thought it was a false memory. He could no longer distinguish between fact and fiction; now believing the only love that existed was that for Big Brother. He did not want to admit that his memories of the past were the truth. This is the turning point for him, where he no longer uses his memories to guide him.

Furthermore, Winston had bought a glass paperweight from Mr. Charrington's Antique shop. He found the inside very intriguing. It had a depth to it, even though it was transparent. He thought of the outside arch as the sky and the inside as a complete little world. He imagined he was inside, along with Julia and their apartment. The symbolism of this paperweight indicates th

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